In the Meantime

“In the Meantime”

 How can I feel this way about you?

I haven’t even had the pleasure of your company-

Or felt the velvety smoothness of your skin,

Or smelled the sweetness that lingers on your breath.

But I can imagine-

I imagine feeling the calloused palms of your strong hands as they take my hands into yours-

I can feel the vibration of your gentle laugh following a vulnerable moment for two

I can hear the traces of an “I love you” so pure-

pour into my ears and take hold of my soul.

Somehow you have gained a subtle power over me…

I am enchanted.

I find myself yearning to give up all control.

 

I never imagined myself to be the kind of woman to wait in quiet anticipation of you

“strike while the iron is hot,” is usually my speed

But I’m putting all that behind me now because I know,

I feel that you are well aware of all of my most intimate needs.

The love of a strong man- -quiet, confident, and sure

Who has no qualms with the whole of me, and is the only holder of the keys to this unlocked door.

 

I can only imagine the unbridled freedom that I’ll feel when your love truly takes hold-

It will be the scent of fresh linens and feel like a bath in sun’s gold.

Oh how I can’t wait for the day-

It’s almost too much to bear

But these feelings-

These feelings you evoke in me are so far beyond compare.

 

So will it all be worth the wait?

Some would say there’s no possible way for me to know

But sometimes, when it comes to you

My intuition is filled with an unwavering certainty that I feel down to my core.

 

I asked the Lord for patience, and I know he answers prayers

So in the meantime, I’ll be waiting patiently until both of our hearts are prepared.

Annnd go…..

Class Dismissed

I allowed you to mislead me and misguide me

Use me and abuse me

Deplete me of all of my good intentions

and left me with virtually no remnants of myself.

All of this was done under the guise of friendship;

You preyed on my innocence

manipulated your intentions with me in order to extract  some of the sweetest nectar from my very core.

It wasn’t until too late that I realized that I, in fact, was the only one of us being true.

And even in that realization

I made an attempt to save a friendship that never truly existed at all.

What a fool I was,

But a fool no longer I shall be.

Because you taught me lessons that I wouldn’t have learned ay other way.

To open my eyes to the truly wicked ways of this world?

Teaching me discernment and patience, and the power of an observant eye?

Maybe…

These are things one can only learn from experience…right?

And you-you’re the master teacher.

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